When people come up to my parents and tell them that their younger daughter just doesn't interact much, they don't act surprised. I've always been a silent person growing up. I had a handful of friends, wasn't quite popular at school or anything at all. There was a constant pressure from my parents and teachers who always compelled me to open up and be cheerful. Well truth be told, I was mostly comfortable with who I was. I liked my seclusion and personal space. I liked reading, drawing, watching movies etc.
Anyway, I was always told to be like my friends and be more outgoing like them. As time went by, I started seeing this trait of mine in a negative light. I tried to be more extroverted and started acting like the "ideal" persons I was supposed to be like. But at the end of the day, I always felt so exhausted. It used to drain me off. Finally, curling up in the bed and maybe reading some article online or a nice nap would usually cheer me up.
Ok. Enough of backstory now. As far as I see it, I'd like to classify myself as an introvert. Myers and Briggs have given some typical definition about introversion.(Their definition was a part of my Industrial management curriculum. Ok. That's a bit off topic)Anyway, I've summed up the definition in the first two paragraphs of this post.
Let me get one thing clear first- being an introvert just doesn't simply mean that I'm sad. Nope, I'm not. So please take that myth off your minds. Also, it doesn't make me an anti-social pessimist. I just like solidarity. If you see me at a party sitting somewhere in a corner looking uninterested, then don't assume that I'm not fond of the people around me. I just choose to sit there and enjoy it my way. The worst misconception about me is that I'm a very shy person. LOL..! I assure you I'm not.
Yeah. If you just wanna have a small talk with me, then it's better you don't initiate the conversation at all. I really won't respond much. But, if the topic thrills me (for example movies), then you'll have hard time shutting me up. So choose wisely :D
The reason why I've decided to rant in this post is because introversion is usually looked down upon by people. How about I put it this way? If a child likes chocolate ice cream and hates the strawberry flavor, can you force feed him? Nope. So some people just choose to stay this way right from their childhood. 21 years of my life have gone by and today I'm finally embracing my personality without being skeptical. I like living my life this way. So please don't try to make me pass off as an extrovert. Sadly, most of my life I've always believed that my nature was something very peculiar and jeez... some people have also told me I'll have trouble facing interviews and making friends. Pfft.. I've a handful of good friends and I've faced my interviews well too. LOL. But being who I am seems way better than being someone who they want me to be. :)
**Introvert and proud**
P.S: These were the fragments of my nagging mind. I think most of you must've been flustered by now. Anyway, try putting the pieces together and see if you can understand what I mean. If you can relate, then don't forget to drop a comment by. Have a good day ahead!
